Choices we make

I was not really paying attention when I got onto Facebook tonight. the bars on the right streams what people have been listening to on Spotify

I saw that the last song he played on Spotify was "I know you're married but I still love you."

I was certain - that this was a complete coincidence and had absolutely nothing to do with our circumstance.

Yet, I just started crying.

I realized at that moment that I had very intense feelings for him. I felt ridiculous.

The moment of realization came hitting me like a ton of bricks. The fact was - I thought that I could just let this go on, forever, remain status quo, not question how I feel, what he feels and whether we have a go of any sort.

The choices we make in life are not always so simple, so black and white, and each choice we make has a consequence. The consequence is such that I don't believe that this would end well. I think I'm in the process of falling. The process of falling is a dangerous route.

I suspect not enough shrink sessions would help me get through this.

But I know what I didn't know before. You couldn't possibly separate emotional attachment with physical attraction.

At some point, they catch up with one another.

Then you have a choice to make, what do you do? What type of choice one makes has a distinct consequence.

I dare not think about the consequence.