An except of "Declaration"

Since this is NOT the double secret site, I try not to write too explicitly. 

So this is just a short excerpt. The "cleaner" version for a story called "the declaration"

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Boyfriend brought me to the bathtub. I was stripped naked. hair a bird's nest. Bathtub was basic in size, but the corner room was nice. It had a 180 degree view of the city. granted, it was the freeway heading to a dead end into the city street. It had a view. It was lit, the city was getting dark and we'd eaten. I missed his place. Our place. I called it "our" place, but it was not "ours,' it was not even his, sometimes. Like as in now. It was occupied by others.

I knew what he wanted to do. He had a hand held video camera. He was holding it because he had been recording us, recording me.

I told him only if it was good. Boyfriend laughed and said, "Of course it is good. It is great."
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As I laid down on the hard bathtub, and as he entered me, his body against my now soaked, wet body covered by ...

"I love you." I said.

"I love you too." He answered.

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He said that he told his sisters about us. About seeing me.

He told his friend about me. About seeing me. 
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I love how we could go through a full circle. And now we were connected in more than one ways  Through his friends, family and images he painted of me, I was alive in other people's lives. Others who cared about him. Therefore, I had become an extension of their lives too. They would ask him each time they saw him, "How's that girl you are seeing? Are you still seeing her? How are you guys doing? Would we ever meet her?"

I suspected the answer was always, "She's well. Yes. Great. No."

I feel like sending boyfriend a survey every 45 days. Every 45 days a survey goes out to boyfriend that says the following:

"What do you like the most about her?"
"What do you like the least of her?"
"What would you like for her to continue?"
"What would you like for her to do more?"
"What would like you for her to stop?"

That's how each relationship should be like. It's a job performance. You survey to get feedback. You improve. You make an conscious effort to maintaining a healthy, strong, productive, open, transparent relationship while seeking constant improvements. You take criticism in strike.  You just keep on working on it until it's better.

No fuddy-duddy "I love yous." No butterfly-everything-is-great-until-it's-not mirage. Just plain facts.

Relationship maintenance was just a continuous improvement plans. Until you had fixed all the issues and then you survey again. And then after you had fixed those issues, you'd move onto others.
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