Thursday, March 28, 2013

I must walk away

I have resisted answering this text. I don't mind being involved with him physically, but he's hollow. He has no soul. He does not feel and he does not know how his conduct affects others. He mistreated me, and he took advantage of me. I gave a year and half of my affection and love to him and he did not give a crap about it and he simply ignored me when I needed him the most.

What kind of person does that? I crave him. I absolutely crave him. I crave being with him, having him wrapping his body inside of mine, I crave his smell, his touch, his kiss and his scent. I am addicted to him. It's a terrible addiction.

But I can't give up. I must not give up. Love is a war. Love is absolutely a war. There is always a winner and a loser. I want to be the winner. The winner is the one who spoke the least.

Perhaps one day he'll miss me. He'll realize what he had was pretty grand, and what he had was my love, and I'd have done everything and anything for him, and he ignored me and mistreated me so much that I had to leave.

Perhaps, but I must have courage. I have to stay strong, and stay away from him.

He's bad news. I didn't mind to have sex with him without emotional attachment. But he wanted my emotional attachment in addition to sex and he wanted me to give everything to him, and then he just left, and leave me with nothing. And when he was horny and wanted me, he then texted me and wanted me. No apologizes no nothing, And that does not work for me. If he does not say sorry, and change his ways I have no business to do with him.

And since he won't do any of it, the only thing that I can do, is to walk away. I'll cry along the way, but I must stay strong, and walk away. 

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